This pregnancy has gone well. I've been working hard to keep my anxiety at bay and just focus on having faith. I've been laying my heart on the line to God every day, asking for strength and faith. While praying at church one Sunday Sarah started moving. I've tried to remember that moment when I am low as an answered prayer from God. A sign that all will be well. I have zero control of the outcome so I just have to have faith that my doctors are monitoring me and doing all they can. I am cautiously optimistic. I can't truly feel connected and good until she is here but I can find things to be excited about. I love her room. It is a very happy place. Caroline loves it too! She loves to go in there and play. I LOVE seeing the pregnancy through Caroline's eyes. She is soooooooo excited to be a big sister. She loves to talk to her, kiss her, sing to her. Seriously the cutest thing ever. She gives Sarah a kiss goodnight every night and tells her about all the fun things they will get to do and that she can teach her. Her favorite thing right now is saying, "Hi Sarah! I'm you're big sister Caroline. I love you." She and I went shopping and she picked out jammies and a toy to give Sarah when she is born. She is very excited to go get her a balloon once she is here to bring to the hospital too. She helped me pack Sarah's hospital bag the other day. She was excited to pick out clothes and jammies and bows. It was so cute. I'm so happy that they will have each other. Siblings are the best :)
While I am due in July I will be having a planned c-section the last week of June. This is because of my pregnancy history, because I've already had one c-section, and because of my unicorniate uterus (read post before to learn more). While recovering from a c-section is NOT fun I'm happy that is our plan. I don't need more baby anxiety in my life. So we are just over 6 weeks from baby!
Below are a few pictures from the past few months. If I have time after her birth I will share her birth story and then I think I am done with blogging. I would just rather spend my free time doing other things. This blog helped me get through the toughest time of my life but now I'm only feeling the need to blog out of obligation. I want to focus on being in the moment with my family. I love being a mom and I just want to focus on that.
Love,
Megan
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| Caroline wanted to be Cinderella for Halloween and asked us to be a Prince and Princess too. This is the day we found out I was pregnant too! |
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| How cool is this 3D ultrasound! You can see the arm and leg buds and the umbilical cord! |
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| In January we went to Disney World! |
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Caroline's Third Birthday Party
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| Sarah kissing me! |
Sarah's Room
So exciting!! Great read!! Great pictures!! Especially love the bit about Caroline interacting with Sarah. Prayers being lifted. :)
ReplyDeleteI love your posts! I hear you, technology can be a bit a distraction that can take you away from the present moment. I love Sarah's room and I just love how Caroline is anticipating her arrival and being so helpful as a big sister. When you mentioned being in church praying and how Sarah stirred with joy it really reminds me of a book I'm reading called "Angels in my Hair" by Lorna Byrne. It's a book about a girl who sees angels and she says that they are thousands of them in churches, temples and synagogues -- where worship is happening. I think of you all often and I love you dearly! xoxo. I can't wait to meet Sarah.
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